Destiny....

If a song could get me you

I could try with a waltz
I could try rock'n'roll
I could try with the blues
If a song would do

I could sing it high or low
When I let you go, you know
I thought it was for the best
Now it is so obvious

So here it is, here it goes
I could try it rock'n'roll
A change-your-life-forever-tune
If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio

If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

I could run for miles and miles
I'd take off and I'd start flying
I could cross land and sea
If you'd just believe me

I should not have hurt you so
This old house is not a home
Without you here there's no use
I've got no time left to lose

So here it is, here it goes
I could try it rock'n'roll
A change-your-life-forever-tune


If a song could get me you
I could make it high or low
Sing it on the radio
If that is what I need to do
If a song could get me you

If a song could get me through
I'd sing my way right back to you
Tell me how to make it right
Tell me now, I'll start tonight
I know I could make it last

I swear to you that if I knew
What I was getting myself into
I wouldn't answer to my fears

下班後去了一趟INDIVI拿修改的褲子 順便試穿了幾件新品

也許是自己衣櫃裡躺著被我遺忘的衣服不少

也許是景氣的不景氣也影響到了我

最後挑了一件長版毛衣外套及日製的圍巾

算了算用VIP打完折扣約6,000NTD 這樣的價格對這品牌來說並不太貴

但最後我卻什麼都沒買….

回家的路上心情不知怎了的很糟到宿舍門口 眼淚掉不停….

讓我想起還在念書的時候每次回家媽媽總會帶我去百貨公司

從早逛到打洋有時總挑不到喜歡的東西空手而回

一坐上車的我就會嘟起嘴巴擺臭臉

那時候開始只要媽媽陪我逛街 再怎樣都會找到一件我愛的東西買給我…..

想想從小到大爸媽總是努力滿足我任何的需求 從不讓我失望

工作後經濟獨立了更不用說

我的消費習慣不是那種非名牌不買或分期循環利息使用信用卡

只是這是第一次 對於我喜歡的東西 沒擁有

一點也不像我….

以為會多想一些 節省一些 是在結婚之後 有了baby

這點認知我很早就有在身邊的好姐妹一個個當了媽媽之後 …

可是結婚對現在的我來說還遙不可及 應該是吧 ？

在同一個地方打轉已經好久是我不夠聰明還是愈轉反而愈不清楚

從不提任何想法的人是不是就真的沒那個心？

從不給承諾的人是不是就真的沒把對方放在二個人未來的規劃裡？

昨天又失眠了一整晚

在想有人真心願意在他未來的計劃裡 畫出一個屬於我的位置嗎？

又怎麼樣的生活才可以一直很快樂 而且是我想要的

我要的真的很簡單為什麼 沒有人懂…